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This morning I told the Holy Spirit I was too busy, not in so many words but in my actions as I thought about my full plate and where I could book time for God, a little here, a little there.
Does it sound as bad to you reading it as it sounds to me confessing it? I am called to be real and transparent in my writing, so you get the truth, even when it is not pretty. I cannot imagine a worse place to be than on a pedestal.
When I sat down this morning to read scripture I was already feeling overwhelmed from the weight of the day. All these things that I needed to accomplish were flooding my brain. It was at that moment I felt the gentle nudge “are you too busy for Me?”
No Lord, I cried out, I am sorry, forgive me. It is so easy to lose our way! Later I will read scripture, tomorrow I will find a church, next week I’ll start praying with my children before meals. POSTPONING GOD.
13 Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit”; 14 whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away. 15 Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we shall live and do this or that.”
James 4:13-15 NKJV
God will not be postponed; He is the creator of the universe and our time on earth is finite.
That busy feeling even before I sat down to read was stealing me away from God. Putting up barriers and excuses. Like the manic rabbit from Alice and Wonderland, “I’m late, I’m late, for a very important date, no time to say hello goodbye I’m late!” Instead of pushing away with excuses, that is when we should be leaning into our Lord.
I am sorry Lord for the times I tried to postpone our relationship. The times I tried to schedule you in like an obligation and neglected your status as my Lord and Savior. Thank you for reminding me of the temporary status of the human condition. You God are everything and I have nothing but time to serve my King. -Amen